Guys its getting hard to be near oncomming traffic. I find myself struggling with a temptation to step out into it. I make myself step back and not look at it.

I have NO intention of harming myself. But the desire to go home to the Lord and escape from what feels like a no-way-to-win situation is quite strong in me.

I remind myself that God has my life in His hands. That the time to go home is His choice not mine. That I have very many people who love me and even depend on me. That these intense feelings of failure will pass. I cling to these escapes so that I can endure the temptation.

But I think its worth mentioning that I am feeling this temptation and asking for you guys to pray for me.

Lord help me process these feelings in a healthy way. Deliver me from temptation and keep me from the evil one. I ask in Jesus name.

Cat.