im sorry you had to go through all that crap...especially from your parents. i personally make it a rule to not tell anybody, even my most trusted friends about my attractions cuz it's just not worth it and it's not like they'll understand anyway. i think what we have takes a great deal of wisdom and acceptance to be understood.

im an atheist. i think a lot of people use religion as a sort of defensive mechanism/shield for whatever they have done or what people have done to them. the way i deal with my sexuality is i just accept it. i mean just because society says it's wrong doesnt mean it's wrong. society is just a projection of the thoughts of the majority and their rules. now dont assume that i go around breaking laws with that philosophy but it makes me understand that society and people (friends family strangers) will try to project onto ur life their thoughts and wants. but just because they think that being (example) a homosexual is "wrong" doesnt mean it is. just because they think you should be an engineer or doctor doesnt mean that's best for you. and these things i just mentioned are common examples of people/society trying to affect your life. but remember it's YOUR life. you are entitled to it. but you shouldnt do anything wrong either...and i define "wrong" as someone whose actions result in the pain or suffering of another person(s). nothing more. cuz i mean if u look at history, people's ideas of whats right or wrong can change a lot and society's laws and standards reflect that but that shouldnt affect you as a person.

anyway that was just a bunch of disorganised thoughts...i guess my main points are dont feel bad because other people say being a pedophile is wrong and you feel you have to turn to God or whatever for comfort. as long as your actions dont result in the harm of others, then do whatever you want. societal standards are just there to conform the minority to the wants of the majority. learn to know and love yourself and life your life the way you want to without feeling guilty about it.