Hi Kristian :)

Nice to meet you.

And yes, I know all so much about the temptation and the lure. And I have prayed consistantly (and not so consitantly) for just that. But it also takes more than prayer. It takes a support system. When I had that, I was fine. When I was devoid of that support, that is when it all crashed down on me. I am not saying that God isn't powerful enough to wipe it from me directly, because I know He is. But I also know he gives us these "thorns" so that we do not become full of pride, but rather turn to him with praise. He uses ordinary things like brotherly support and other things like that to hold us upright. My problem was my own doing. When I lost the support of cblf, I thought I could handle it "on my own" and didn't seek out another way. God would have provided, had I sought it. But I didn't and so I fell.

Two things...

1)I have read some of your posts. Your slang.. UKish? lol has to be. I have friends from there and they always use "fink" and "fing" and some of the others I've seen. Tommyknockers is slang for police isn't it?

2)Not that it really makes a difference ultimately, but boys are not my problem. heh. I am attracted to girls. Same 'problem' different plumbing. And when I was referring to porn, I meant the legal variety (18+)

And I really thank you for your prayers!!! I can use all the prayers I can get. *smiles*