I know its only early days on this whole YF journey but already I've noticed something significant.

I don't spend a lot of time thinking about him.... its not like I'm obsessed or anything. In fact this is the first time I've fallen "in love" and been so sensible about the whole thing. (Mind you I was still a teen last time I feel "in love" with a boy - hehe.)

Anyway... to my point: I find that when my mind starts getting boy focused my thoughts now centre on my yf rather than on more sexual type interests/ideas.

To be honest I feel pretty good about this.

I want to be a good friend and role model to this kid... and I figure in order to do that I want my thoughts towards him... and towards boys in general to have some integrity.

I want to be able to say... I'm attracted but I don't perv at boys and I don't look up pics or do anything that may give others reason to accuse me of inapproriate behaviour. Some how being able to say this makes me feel like I am good for my yf... rather than someone who is a bit suspect.

Love motivates us to overcome.

I don't know how much I "love" this kid. Its all very simple at the moment, it comes down to this... he brings me joy.... and I thank God for that.

Blessings
Cat.