I mostly agree with you here Dakota. If you completely avoid boys online or in real life things get worse not better. I have found that when I interact with children I have a more realistic and healthy view of them. The times in my life when I have been isolated from them for periods of time has made me go the opposite.

Being a boylover is not an addiction it is our sexual orientation. It is sexual and emotional. When you attempt to suppress something that is a fundamental part of who you are it will make you an emotional wreck. I have been in that state of denial as have plenty of other people here. It is not a happy place nor a truthful one. If you acknowledge who and what you are you can learn to live a responsible life.