Hey T Money,

I thought I would tell you a little about my own journey as a minor attracted adult... since it addresses some of your questions.

I am in my late 30s… married with a bunch of kids (mostly boys) ranging in age from preschool to adult.

I have never sexually touched my kids. Nor would I and go well out of my way to protect them from anyone who may have intentions to do so.

I believe that adults engaging children sexually is inappropriate and against God’s will. Nevertheless, I have a desire (ie: an internal drive not an intention) to love a boy in a very intimate way that does include sexual feelings. I see this as a brokenness in me… and whilst many here would not agree with this assessment: I consider myself disabled.

I have tried many ways to change into a straight guy… Prayer, fasting, counseling… getting MARRRIED! None of these things have worked for me… though they have all helped me in life enormously.

I am not tempted to sexually engage a real child. Honestly having been sexually engaged by an older person as a kid myself… I have no desire to put any child through the trauma of the social rejection that I have suffered. Nor do I believe that God would approve of such an action. In my opinion the only allowable sexual relationship is between a man and woman in marriage.

I try and discipline myself even in my fantasy life. I try and never fantasise about real boys I know… and I heavily restrict what fantasies I do allow.

I hoped getting married would change my orientation… it hasn’t… and my wife and I are trying to come to terms with that.

I am out to all of my good friends. Many of them have children, and they all trust me with them. I have never betrayed that trust, nor do I intend to. I make it a point never to be alone with other people’s children. I don’t do this to avoid temptation… I do it so that my friends NEVER have a reason to suspect that something might me going on.

My age of attraction is 8 to pre-puberty. I have a real thing against hair… once a kid gets hairy I loose my attraction… I have tried so hard to make this change… I don’t believe I can do it. I am not attracted to men… I don’t think I could make myself be… so I’m not a repressed gay (as one of your posts questioned). It’s not just a physical attraction… everything about a boy’s personality and psychological development is attractive to me.

I see that the responsible thing for me to do as a Christian is to exercise self-control over my desires… which is exactly what Scripture teaches. I can’t change them… but I can manage them responsibly.

I hope that I can make some friendships with boys and just enjoy being with them in public situations… as part of church community for instance… but I’m still figuring out what that means for my marriage.

Well I hope this helps to enlighten your perspective on what Minor Attraction is in our world… that is my intention.

I expect that your conditioned way of thinking may lead you to misunderstand some of what I’ve written… so if you have any concerns or questions… please ask them.

Blessings
Cat.