I didn't get around to give him the letter, before i started crying. I just spat it out. He asked me alot of questions, and i was honest with him. We have never been better. I feel like, i can finnaly get up and move on, now that i have someone else to help carry my stuff up the mountain. We aren't in a gay relationship or anything. But he led me on, and i think he is still hiding something. But, he's not ready to tell me. I promised him that i would not do anything to make him feel uncomforable. He couldn't believe that someone, besides his relitives, that could care for him so much. And, i told him, that i also wanted to do something, that I wanted to do, as a guy who cared about him so much, i kissed him on the forehead, and he fell asleep in my grasp. I hope this isn't bad to talk about, we aren't doing anything wrong. But then i had dreams (more like nightmares) of questions i asked him. I wanted to ask him to have sex with me (*in my dream!!!!*) And i just kept dreaming about some STUPID little girl seducing him. AHHHH! But anyway, i told him about it this morning. I asked him what he wouls do if something like that happend. He seems like someone who could be seduced easily. He said "i would say that im a Christian"
I thought about the other question i wanted to ask, but never did.
As a tear rolled from my eye i said "A.J, always use that as an exuse".
And hugged him.

I feel like a barrier holding me from God has been lifted, i can finnaly move on again!