But, im going through alot right now. I am depressed confused and to be all honest; very upset. I have been writing a paper as like a third person relfection on myself. And i plan on sharing it with some of you. But for the saftey of the board, and plus i just plain don't feel comfy talking about it on CBLF, if you would like to help, offer your email. Please note, that the emails won't contain me complaining and ranting on; but expresses every inch of my feelings right now.

Guys, if never again, i need your help right now. This is strictly if you want to help, not to preach too or judge. And if at all possible, no critisism, not even constructive. Im a milked down cookie ready to crumble. Please help guys.