Guys,

I fear that i may have been found out, about my boy loving status, not that it would matter if my family found out. But dating back to a few months ago I made some choices that are not accepted in this country and i fear that my time of a normal life is comming to an end. I also fear that i may have screwed up, for good. But this also could be a paranoia chain of coincidents, and i could be fine, but only time will tell. I cannot bare to think about what could happen... and all this around christmas time. These mistakes i made do not envolve me and anyone else, it was a solo choice, meaning i didn't do anything with or to anyone. But i am in such a chaotic state of mind, and my YF wants to know whats wrong with me.

Pray for me guys.

I have also been on a spiritual journey through Proverbs, seeking wisdom. Guys, if we put all our trust in God, and not lean on our own understanding, and we aknowledge God at all times, he will set our paths strait. That is my prayer for all of you. If you say you will pray for someone, and you don't, or you just read the posts hear, i have a plead, PLEASE pray for me right now. I need it more than ever before.