Inspiring stuff Diddy... I'm very glad I asked you that question.

I'm afraid old Cat is getting synical all of a sudden.

Am I doomed to ACT in some way on my sexuality... even if it is no more than a fantasy or an occasional wank?

Is it irrisistable? Are we just child mollestors waiting to happen like the antis claim?

I pray that it is not so... but my once clear hope has been tarnished by the relentlessness of the hunger for all things boy.

I like the way you put the struggle interms of the heroic dance and the desire to not corrupt the cherubs that we so addore. It is the classic battle between the old man and the new... the carnal nature and the Spirit.

"If you walk in the Spirit you will not fulfill the lusts of the flesh" Gal 5.

God help us.

Cat.