Well Cat,
You especailly know my choice. I am just trying to live my life with no regrets, because, i already regret alot of my past thus far in my life, and i can't do it anymore, thats not what its all about. Im tryting to do a little bit of everything while i got some teen left in me. I know God, and i love him and what His son did for me. And you know, its times like this, or when you stare your really cute YF in the eye, that you realize that it IS more than we humans can reconcile. And i think back, if it weren't for ONE person who whitnessed to me, who knows where i'd be. Its just my life is alot more unpredictable than usual, with my life changing and the whole situation with my father, my mother is geting older, my older brother wil be gone next year. And before you know it, im scared i'll be all alone. As a kid, i'll be honest, i didn't fell as if i was always cared for. Thats my objective for my YF at the moment. I mean, i got him a birthday present and his brother didn't even gove him one! Im tierd of younger boys feeling out in the cold, forgotten, and as much to my ability i will do what it takes to eliminate that feeling, no matter what the cost.