Thats a bit too futuristic, even for me.

I find him attractive and all, especially today, he kept standing really close to me. I mean, im serious when i say i love the kid, i thought i loved some other boys, but that was just fling. And you know, mabey it is an obsession, but there is nothing i can do about it, my life is my life. And if he chooses to love me back, i don't see anything that would pose to be something i couldn't move on in life because of.

This relationship has started out as an premature aquantice, and has turned into blossoming love that i have no contol over, The kid even calls and talks to me for hours. And he is always my partener in stuff we do at church, and always sits next to me. I wished he lived with me. And you know, it not until your goofing around until you find out how hard temptation is, i went to push him over and accedentily got his entire package, and he let out a moan of pleasure, and his smile was so, perfect. This kid is right now, my everything. He understands evrything about me, we love everything about each other, have the same interests, and i could go on forever. I am just tierd of "Jesus this..." and "Jesus that".... I know.

And one day it will all come clean to me, and i will understand. And i don't believe it will be a day too late. And heartbreak, right now, seems unprobable, but i won't stop watching my back. And what is life without heartbreak? Just another lesson unlearned. But right now, he is what i need. And if i lose him, i could go crazy. Best not to be a negitive nancy and think about such things.

In Christ
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