Lol, Youth, you amaze me!

The BL that I wish I could be always seems to be displayed in you - my stupid inhibitions always seem to get in the way. As much as I would love it, I often finding myself refusing any affection or special time together that might seem the least bit questionable. This happened a while ago, but this topic brought it to mind: I was waving bye to a boy that I am decent friends with and he seems to like me (although I wouldn't see a relationship coming out of it) and he came running to me. In the few seconds there were before he reached me I quickly evaluated the situation. There was a 98% chance he would give me a hug, we were in a very public place with both his and my family around, and my inhibitions were raising the red flag. The reaction? Hands out for a hi-five (and far enough out that he couldn't give me a hug). Would I have wanted that hug? You bet!! But then again, in the circumstances, I was fairly satisfied that he was 98% likely to give me a hug. Truth be told, I've only been hugged by non-related and non-obligated (hugs under obligation ruin the entire meaning behind them!) boys over 10 years old like 3 times! Sad, I know, especially in comparison to you, but I know that I am largely to blame for it, and I can't seem to get over it.

As far as loving our YFs, well I don't really have any, but as far as loving and being thankful for all the boys that have touched my life ... YOU BET!!!

Thanks for the update - good to hear from you. And yes, I am completely jealous :P

Graces of God,
Deliverance