haha that made me smile newgeorge.

it does bring up an interesting point though, that the way i view life is totally different from what eldad thinks i ought to. i dont view life as a gift, it's really just something that happened and i dont think i have any obligation to live it out as fully as i can and leave whenever some disease or freak accident decides it's over. i believe that life is only worth living when it's actually worth living...there's gotta be a good reason to stick around and so i constantly have to find a reason to live another day.

i honestly cannot say if i am obsessed with my yf. all i know is that i do constantly think about him and constantly miss him and maybe i shudve 'moved on' by now but i dont really see the point of it and it's definitely not preventing me from doing anything with my life. also i believe if i really love him i would never give up or try to forget him and the whole life carries on bullshit. to me life only carries on when i say it does.