this is not a personal attack or anything but it's people like you that make me feel guilty about who i am.

after exploring over many months, ive realised i feel very much like a parent who's lost a child. it's left a huge hole in my life that i still dunno how to fill. yes it's a big deal to me and yes i guess i cant stop thinking about it and yes i keep wondering what the hell happened and how i can i ever fix it or deal with it...

so why do u have to say im obsessed? thats such an ugly word. why do u automatically go to the negative???? i guess part of me is still naiive and stupid for thinkin everyone on this board is going to be nice about things. honestly..