You asked:

What is it that you would want to do if you were completely allowed?

I say: If you have to ask that question than you are in the wrong forum.

I don't understand the rest of your post as I have read my post you are responding to and it seems to me at least you missed the mark of what I was trying to say. So, let me sum up my earlier response with this:

I am just countering questions and statements which to me seem more like excuses instead of being an attempt at finding out the honest answer.

By the way, I am not a kid apart from being God's kid. Please don't waste your time making assumptions about me when you don't even know me.

Assumptions are the mother of all fuck ups - The Villain in Under Siege 2